It is a letter addressed to the Founder by an England-returned High official in Railways, dated 19th August 1949. A reference to Mother's Grace showered on this gentleman has been made in subsequent chapters. The repetition may therefor be observed later, but that may be excused, being inevitable to fully understand the facts. He is the gentleman who is further described in "The lady had a friend in Baroda, a high officer who was most severely devoted" and further, "The lady saw him at a Saint's place in the most humiliated plight regarding his standard of living, etc."
This letter from him is after a long gap of years together, say, the first letter after over six years. The circumstance which led to the renewal, was that the Founder accidentally came across an old letter of the man, which had predicted in 1943, that the Founder would be in a temple of his own, near a sea-coast on or about March or April of 1949. Founder was overjoyed on reading the old letter as he had entered "Mai Niwas" in Santa Cruz, near sea-coast, on Mother's Day, 4th March 1949, and Founder opened the correspondence by thanking him, congratulating him for the prediction and blessing him.
The devotee's letter, abridged, stands as under:
19th August 1949,
My dear Mai (Markand Kaka),
" Your letter dated 15th August 1949, reached me on 18th August 1949 at 17/20 hours. I have faith that you are endowed with miraculous supernatural Divine powers.
" On the evening of 5th November 1942, I felt a strange feeling on finishing my chanting of Chandipatha (Saptashati) practically for the whole day. It was about 6 p.m. I went out for a walk and when I reached Mandvi (in Baroda), I felt I had no body, even though I was conscious of myself. I felt I was floating in the air. I wonder how I walked over the distance back to my home. I went straight to the bed but could not get sleep.
" After the middle of the night, at about 3-0 a.m., early morning, I saw a light, which was very bright advancing like a small ball getting bigger and bigger. It opened out and in it I saw a face covered up with long hair, black and shiny with lustrous and beautiful eyes, which I have never seen before or after. I was afraid and I began to pray. The sound came to my ears of the words "Do not worry; your anxieties will be over and your work done from 23rd to 28th November 1942".
"These were true words as was proved, from subsequent events. On Saturday, i.e., on the following day, 6-11-1942 being a Friday, I received a letter from her (the intermediary lady) about her having spoken to you at about 3-0 a.m., (the exact time when I got the vision), to pray to the Mother and you said, "She has already done it."
"I experienced a similar phenomenon on 15th evening of August 1949 at about 8 p.m., while I was walking in the pitch dark on my way back from Ashapura Mataji's temple here. I became conscious of a very bright light following me so much so that I saw my shadow in it. When I turned back, I saw no light and yet I saw the shadow!! I have not yet fathomed what is meant. It will come to me someday".
The time when this was being experienced, was the time when the Founder was writing the letter in "Mai Niwas" in presence of Mai, after a great devotional communion.
67. There are experiences of " messages " as well. Thus, Mother helps Her devotees in so many ways, dreams, visions, suggestions and messages, which one would very clearly hear to the preciseness of being able to jot down and by way of a regular dictation, as it were. We are referring here to the instances of " Direct Personal Contacts " and not to so many altogether-unknown arrangements and disposal of matters, that Mai is managing, behind the back of Her devotees, for their protection and smooth-running, for their Yoga and Kshema-attainment and retention. As a matter of fact, devotees gradually get trained to believe they are under the constant care and supervision of their MAI and get more and more, at all hours grateful, for all the good that is conferred on them. The devotee who atributes the miseries that he has to pass through in life to Mother, without the gratefulness, is no devotee at all. He is a bargainer and a business-trader and an exploiter of Mother's Grace. He is a sucker, a leech.
68. There is an instance of a long message, stated to have been actually dictated by Mai, which is most encouraging and illuminating for devotees trying hard to struggle with their unfavorable circumstances and repeated discomforts and inconveniences. The substance may be gathered from the following brief extract:
29th December 1949.
"Beloved and Revered Mai-Swarup Mai-Markand,
" I beg to record the following. In fact, it is a copy of what I had, on the spot, recorded on Friday the 23rd instant, at midnight hour. It is not mere "wishful thinking", not " imagination ", not a hallucination, not a phantom. I was seeing with my own eyes, open and alert eyes, Mother-Mai, seated on a chair, next to my table, calmly convincing me of the Reality, and cool-mindedly and quietly giving me a resume of what She wanted to convey........."
This night and this hour was one of the most important times of the Founder's life. It was his first birth-date night (23-12-1949) after he had entered " Mai Niwas ". The Founder had most intense heart-rending and yet most blissful communion with Mother in " Mai Niwas " at Santa Cruz, while a similar miraculous thing was happening in Madras, at the same hour, with a devotee at Madras. There was absolutely nothing like a postal communion before this synchronisation, that can lead to the happenings.
Although, the devotee means and rightly means, it was a Mother's message to him personally, the Founder sees a good deal of most valuable teaching which is universally applicable and useful to so many of a certain cast and group of mentalities and circumstances, and the Founder interprets " you " in the message to mean "all like you, including you," and not " you " alone. There is a reference to this birth-day night hour, further on, in this compilation.
The letter continues :
"......What Mother said was this :
" You are given all obstacles in smooth life, with a purpose. I have tried to bring you round, to suit my ways. You are often caught up in life's tangles and hence the progress I mean for you, becomes slow. But still, in spite of you, there has been and is, a gradual progress. Don't think I can't give you, wealth, power and a brilliant career. I can do that very easily, but if you become any such one, entangled in those things, I cannot have you for my work. I want you for something, which is many times much more important.
"Do realise this from now onwards, atleast. Don't worry about how life passes, and will pass for you. It is not without purpose, I bring you in contact with " Sat Purusha " (Saintly persons), all with deep purposes, and to train you. Worldly life (Samsara, income, expenses, joys and sorrows, pleasures and pains, etc.) will always be one of endless problems, and there is and will be no end to your prayers. Surely, I wish you are not going to use me only for these useless problems-solving, and surely I am not going to rest with just helping you only over your ever-repeating worries and problems.
"What is the end of it all?? What is the purpose of life?? Just think deeply, most deeply, meditatively. Mai-Swarup was specially brought by me, to this house, not without deep object. His repeated enlightenment about Mai-ism and Mai for one and all, the whole humanity, is so crystal-clear, you have read and understood, and should be convincing. His present letter and elucidation of Sri Rama Krishna Paramahamsa is still more vivid. What more can I do for you?? It is so simple and yet you people wander here and there and ask for this and that, and such petty and unreal and ephemeral things, and waste time and valuable opportunities lying before, and even sometimes forced by me on you, as though, fulfilment of material wants has got any end, and will permanently solve all problems for all persons!!! Take things as they come, and do what you can. You should, as normal beings, be ever-remembering that your best and worst efforts, are controlled and guided by Me, unseen by you, and unknown to you.
"I have been training you, all along, against all odds, though the progress is slow, slow, but never-the-less steady and permanent. There is a definite gradual improvement. You are meant for my purpose and to fulfil My Will. Have some sense of proportion, as to what is important and on what you should spend more thought and time, i.e., (a) looking after your material problems and getting yourself more and more entangled and (b) spiritual virtues of life and spreading to others all about ME.
"You should not miss, atleast hereafter, and you should not lose the valuable times ahead, and the rare opportunity of fully utilising Mai-Swarup Mai-Markand and of serving him and ME. Everyday and every opportunity lost and missed, can never be had. It is loss to you and others and to ME. Don't worry about the rest. Leave things to ME, and leave them to ME absolutely.
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"Such was the clear and correct enlightenment, such as I never had in such calm and endearing manner, all my life, from any one and not even from Mother (here the writer means, either Mai-Image he worships or more likely, the Founder). My mind and brain was never so clear and calm, and was never convinced so fully, as I became and as I was, on 23rd night. From that time, my outlook on life and on my problems has changed so vitally, that I am now carefree and take things lightly, and know that my chief aim and purpose is to serve Mother, and that on the lines indicated by Mai-Swarup Mai-Markand and to be of service to him (Her through him), and to utilise him fully and not miss any opportunity for such service.
"This is to be so, in daily life, thought, word and deed. All good that Mother confers on me, is with a purpose, not for me to be foolishly enamoured with and be lost in material glories but to be all the more realising Mother's Great Glory. All for Her work and as per Her Will.
" In fact, I had drafted a telegram: but I hesitated and I wanted to make sure that that was really Mother. Of course I carry on; but the chief and most important work is, service to Mother and Mai-Swarup (both the same, as Mother Herself said). Mother will take my burdens on Herself, in some way or the other. I need not bother, any longer. The text of the telegram, I drafted, is as under :-
" Mai-Swarup Mai-Markand,
" Mother tonight grants me calm and correct enlightenment. re: Mai, Mai-ism, Mother purpose of life, training me against odds with slow and delayed progress for the purpose, as per Her Will. Mother says I should not lose valuable time and miss rare life opportunity of utilising Mai-Swarup and of serving him and Her. Assures that rest be left to Her- (Friday, 23-12-1949, midnight hour)."
"I close. I pray I may be made a worthy servant and instrument of Mai and Mai-Swarup. I pray my " Moha " " attachments for Sansar ", greed and lust for money, power, pleasure, etc., may not take the upper hand and hinder me and Her work".
69. The Founder has an inward satisfaction when he knows Mother's Full Grace continuously showering on him. Mother gives dreams visions and messages to others and directly or indirectly informs others, as if to say, Mai and Mai-Swarup are nearest, if not Mother and Son, or if not same and one, as some (Devotees or Adwaitins) may believe. But, then comes an extremely sorrowful wave of a lamentful and yet turbulent mood. He goes to Mother and talks to Her "What have I to do with my recognition!!! Is that my goal or happiness?? No. I want the world to come forth with whatever sacrifice each one can make, to work with me, to spread Thy Glory and to revise the world's understanding about true religiosity, or, in other words, to spread Thy simple and straight Religion, make people of a better moral caliber, infuse true religiosity, make man-to-man relationship of a much superior order. There, I find a great cipher. Don't cheat me with hollow words of people's praises and prostrations. I want substantial results in life, Morality, Religiosity, peacefulness, security, stability, smoothness and all that is most sublime beautiful and blissful in the living of mankind in general. Raise the minimum, something showered freely and mercifully on all persons even though they have no qualification of theirs except that they have life, except that they breathe in and out, like a blacksmith's bellows. I don't mean dabbling with the Divine Law of give and take, and of more progress, bliss and happiness to more deserving. Let that remain unconstrained and unaltered. Though effortless and unearned, yet every one live most mechanically a better life than the present one. Raise the minimum smoothness and peacefulness of average life of mankind. Let the happiness and misery, at the two extremities be much more heightened if that is necessary and inevitable, for exceptional few. Let there be wars, epidemics devastation diseases destruction etc., if people lose their divine sense and brains and throw all solicitations of thy devotees to winds with indifference and ridicule, and if suffering is the only way for bringing men to their senses, but let the neutral man live a much better life, with Thy Grace of raising the minimum. Let atleast Thy devotees not suffer, for no fault of theirs, an for the only reason that they happen to be in the midst of the world's self invited destruction and misery all around them." If seggregation or isolation is the only salvation remedy, if things can be made more smooth by a re-classification, do that. Do anything but let the world be much happier than now."
70. Some few more things before we turn from Poona to Ahmedabad to which the Founder was transferred. He was invited in June 1933 to speak on "God as Mother," by All Faiths Conference at Nasik, and in 1934 by the 9th Indian Philosophical Congress on "Modern world and Motherhood of God."
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