माई कुमारी सहस्रनाम
Devi stava says," That is done without effort. Even Shiva is powerless to create, preserve or destroy, but Oh ! Mother, the regulation of the universe is but sport to you. Thou art manifesting the universe in Thyself, at Thou own will."
When other thinks he is playing and enjoying, he may be actually worshipping Mother internally. If devotion is ripened to Love, that love will always proceeded with and developed and enjoyed most secretly, with entirely different appearances and even apparent disregard for Mother and Mother worship.
722) Lopaa-mudra-architaa लोपामुर्द्रार्चिता -Worshiped as by Lopaamudraa. ललिता सहस्रनाम स्तोत्र, नाम क्रमांक 647
It may be noted that whatever is stated immediately above is more or less for an individual. Either the desultory progress in the ordinary God fearing usual life, or knowledge or acquisition or practising virtues or trying to regulate mental brain stuff. They all indicate individual efforts and actions.
Next we come to what is done in home life or family life. Here the sense may be taken to be that of worshipping and progressing in the manner of a respectful high class strictly religious family life, say by observances suggested for the householder's life. Lopaamudraa was , as is often previously stated, the wife of the great Muni Agastya.
725) Vaktralakshmiparivaahachalanminaabhalochanaa वक्त्रलक्ष्मीपरीवाहचलन्मीनाभलोचना - Her eyes are like fishes rapidly moving and playing in the shining water of the tank, viz., the bewitching beauty of Her face.As Fishes nourish their progeny though eyes alone , so also Mother give all nourishment to Her devotees through Her merciful eyes shedding Grace. [ ललिता सहस्रनाम स्तोत्र, नाम क्रमांक 18 ]
She becomes so seemingly, while testing Her devotees and while subjecting them to hardest ordeals, and making them passed through the tests and ordeals, with the object of transforming them to be Her highest chosen sons.
730) Vadanadvayaa वदनद्वया- Two-faced.ललिता सहस्रनाम सहस्रनाम स्तोत्र, नाम क्रमांक 487
731) Vadanasmara maangalyagrihatoranachillikaaवदनस्मरमांगल्यगृहतोरणचिल्लिका - Her eyebrows are like green auspicious buntings over the entrance arches of the palace of Kaamaraaj (God of Love).[ ललिता सहस्रनाम स्तोत्र, नाम क्रमांक 17 ]
733) Vandaaru-jana-vatsalaa वन्दारूजनवत्सला -Fond of Her worshippers in the relation of their being Her children, as Mother. ललिता सहस्रनाम स्तोत्र , नाम क्रमांक 349
735) Vahnimandalavaasini वह्निमण्डलवासिनी- Residing in the circle of fire. ललिता सहस्रनाम स्तोत्र , नाम क्रमांक 352
In Gujerat there is a well known paradoxical saying , " Mother does not see the face of anyone hungry,". The explanation is , that as soon as the hungry person thinks of going to Mother, one get's one's food through someone. Similarly here too,asking and granting of the boon is dispensed with. What other deities do by hands, that is done automatically by resorting Mother's Lotus Feet.
739) Varna-roopini वर्णरूपिणी - In the form of letters which form the basis of language whereby knowledge can be given and taken. ललिता सहस्रनाम स्तोत्र, नाम क्रमांक 850
Speech is classified as Para, Pashyanti, Madhyamaa and Vaikhari, which terms will be discussed hereafter.Goddess of speech is one of the deities , in the octagon referred to before as a figure for meditation, in the Shree Chakra.
Vahni-vaasini is the name of one of the sixteen Nityaas.
An indescribable joy is experienced by the lover, on being slightly ill treated by the beloved and by the beloved while slightly ill treating the lover. That ill treatment is quite against the heart. The pleasure is experienced in the thought , " The lover loves me not a bit less, although I so ill treat".
There is the greatest joy in the idea , I am indispensable to my lover. My devotee will die after me ".To test and also to enjoy this pleasure, Mother sometimes seemingly acts most cruelly. When all other worldly thoughts and desires except those that pertain to the loving and being loved disappear, the contest between the lover and the beloved begins. " To love " is higher than "to be loved ", because of the disinterestedness of love and preparedness for any sacrifice by the lover for the beloved. The contest is for being the lover and making higher sacrifice with great self surrender.
For the sake of my devotional readers, I do not mind narrating my personal experience. After I began to love Mother turning from Power to love, my house built over with my lifelong savings collapsed in 1927 during Gujerat floods. I did not leave Her. And when I began to love Mother on my conception being raised from Hindu Maataaji to Maai of the whole humanity thinking of Her , day and night in 1931, I had been almost lunatic. Still I did not leave Her. When I decided to render more useful service in 1937, my wife turned lunatic and had to be in the Yerawada Mental hospital. And yet I am dead certain " I love Mother and Mother loves me , and most passionately".
It should not be misunderstood, that worship and devotion to Mother results in having to be in calamities. Just the reverse. There are two classes of devotees.Mother is Bhukti- Mukti pradaayini; Giver of the highest enjoyment, and highest beatitude and what is described here is applicable to only fewest exceptions. none should have the wrong notion of calamities befalling a worshiper or a devotee. I write this , because I have found it necessary from practical facts.
From Bombay (Mumbai) for the same railway fare you can go to Poona [Pune] (Enjoyment-centre) or Nasik (Renunciation centre). It is for you to demand the ticket for the same fare.But once you are in the Nasik train, you can not have the Bhor Ghat natural scenery on the Poona route, as well. This subtle point has already been previously explained. There is a descending half and descending half, of the whole evolution circle. In reality both paths lead to happiness. One is the path of securing outer happiness, and the other, of inner happiness.You have to pay the price for both. Inner happiness is extremely dear and price to paid is extremely heavy.
In practical life, some worshippers have miraculous agreeability and windfall, where as other worshippers can barely make the family-living run.The difference lies in the route of the ticket you have purchased. You cannot be , at your fancy, jumping from one train to the other. Of course , when you are a twenty four hours servant of the Railway Company, you can be in any train, but by that time your natural craving would for Deolali :- The sportive Goddess Mother.
Mother that gives success in all undertakings , to those who propitiate Her on tenth of Bright Fortnight of Aashwin Month, after great propitiation of Her, during the first nine days from 1st to 9th.