To begin certain narratives, the Founder had an extremely intense daughterly love for a lady of a high family and education. She had so much devotion for the Founder that she did not mind the doctor's strict instructions not to move from her sick-bed and she accompanied her husband from Santa Cruz [ Mumbai ] to see the Founder off at Dadar [ Mumbai ] on his way to Hubli. It was raining hard and the train did not run. She was entreated by the Founder to return home, but she would not. Waiting from 8 a.m. to 2 p.m., the Founder proposed to go to Sion [ Mumbai ] to another devotee and return to Dadar [ Mumbai]. Founder went there with all. They were welcomed and immediately the food was prepared. The dining place was dark; the electric lights remained " off " during the daytime. The lady expressed her obstinate child-like desire," I won't take meals in this dark room. If you want me to eat, it must be under those under those electric lights." Founder endearingly asked her not to be so resolute in a matter beyond human control. Said she," I know there is nothing beyond your control. I am extremely hungry. Every moment you are refusing us the light, you are paining me. " Said the Founder, "Mother, here is the foolish girl, but most dear to me. She has not cared for her health and illness. Let her be pleased as well, in Her obstinacy." As soon as these words were uttered, lights were there, till, the whole function was over. In the end, the Founder prayed and the light disappeared.
This lady [Mrs Sushila Desai ] had a friend in Baroda, a high officer who was severely demoted to a small assistant. The lady saw him at a saint's place and said," I will see you are restored to your original state. I am the daughter of the Supreme Mother, in human form who can do anything and who cannot refuse me anything." She returned from Baroda and was with the Founder, one night, eating away his brains, asking for a boon. Gradually she told the story. The Founder did not yield till 3 a.m. and then promised," Alright Mother will see that he is reinstated within a month. " The whole question was re-opened after every hope was dead. He was reinstated.
The Founder had varied unprecedented experiences through this lady. Once, she told the Founder," You must learn Pranayama and Yoga ". Founder said," Have you lost your senses ? With so much experience, you can't understand the greatness of devotion ? " He went away leaving her house courteously. Some half and hour passed. The lady began to see everywhere in every room , every corner, every sofa, every chair, Mother, Mother and Mother. She got afraid ; she ran to the adjourning bungalow where Founder was residing, begged pardon and took him back to her place , to give him his favorite dish of pungent butter fried , bakery bread and mango pickles.
The lady would not do any worship, would not do any mantras, would not offer any offerings to Mother-picture. She would not wave the Arti. The only thing she had was the faith of the highest order. She remain practically in the constant presence of the Founder. She has been constantly hammering the idea, " You are yourself Mother ", and she is hypnotizing herself with the notion, " What he promises must be done . What was once promised by the Founder can never remain unfulfilled. ".
The lady one day asked , " You must raise my husband to be the manager of a concern and not merely an accountant as now." Of course,e the working in the worldly way was there. But he was able to start within three months a new concern which had as its telegraphic address " Mai-concern ".
The husband and son were both once in a trouble regarding the official management of an extremely serious order, though fully innocent. The lady exacted a promise and both were relieved of the embarrassing situation, all the destructive forces changing to be sympathetic.
Her husband was ill and staying at Juhu [ Mumbai ] in a rich bungalow. She would take the Founder from Tagore Road to Juhu and get his blessings on him and she would see him off at the station for Founder to catch his train to go to his office. Doctor said , he will take three months to recover. She told the Founder ," I can't tolerate this delay. You are cruel. If you heartily pray, the illness would disappear. " The Founder was made to promise that he would see that her husband attend office next Friday which meant less than a week. All said," If this proves true " they will be Mai-ists forever. Said Founder not knowing his powers ," Alright, I promise but don't blame me." On Friday he was ready and Founder took him to his office. It was the wonder of wonders. The founder has been all along , dealt with like this, by the world, with a promise to be Mai-ist forever . His powers on believing such promise, grew supernatural. His ambition was to give wonderful experiences of Divine help through Mother's Grace and go on getting families after families praying to Mother. If she took up the Mai cause, that would be accelerated most speedily as she had rich relatives , was herself a cultured and educated lady and she had a moral courage and even boldness of an up-to-date England returned lady.
He however found the world to be too deceitful, selfish and ungrateful in general. Now, that he has the experience of the world full of cheating, he neither believes the promise, nor does he think himself justified in troubling Mother.
The knottiest point which baffled all attempts at a solution was this : Here is a lady. She does not believe in worship and the usual things. She has only one qualification. She has a faith which has no parallel. She believes , " What Founder promises must fulfil." She does not serve him in any extra-ordinary way. She is doing only what any honorable host would do to an honorable guest. The only specialty is she remains practically in the constant presence of the Founder. What is the actual working ? For sometime he began to think about the Theory of Guru - Vakya -Sidhi. It means this ," If you have faith that your Guru is God and simply go on pleasing him , you need not have the same views and beliefs and living as he advises . You need not be obeying. Guru must be loving you and very generally wishing the desires be fulfilled without any special effort or concentration or prayer to Mother on the part of the disciple. Guru's promise and your faith that his promise would not go unfulfilled , are enough for any worldly success. " Founder felt there was some flow somewhere. The flaw was detected one day. It is this : The day, due to some reason or other, the idea of God-hood in Guru disappears , the whole fabric collapses ; and that is natural ; any Guru after all is a human being.
Once she told Founder in a theoretical way of a mind : " Each one is a master of himself. Can I not do any thing in my own house ? Every one is God and God is within everyone of us. "
The most dangerous notion of every one being God is a senseless jargon for which Vedanta teaching is responsible.
At Madras ( Chennai ) in 1949 , an extremely strong Vedantist argued with me for three days ; he was so learned , he came with books and quotations. On the fourth day, I told him admitting defeat ," Tomorrow you come here with an agreement that you have transfer all your property to me. I am not different from you. There are no two souls. and this is only a question of transferring matter." He laughed outright. He said," That is quite apart. That is not relevant," that has nothing to do with philosophy." He stood and never turned up again.
Although the supremacy of " I am God " is not denied, the world will be happier by being taught ,' Thou art God '. That expression ' I am God ' is true in a particular sense only and at a particular finished perfect stage . If you are a true Adwaitist, with whom are you fighting , calling him a Dwaitist ? Adwaitism is an ideal though highest and not a fact to be exploited in your worldly dealings . According to Mai-ism Adwaitism is a stage of consciousness which is superior to Dwaitism, but is no independent path by itself. It is a description of a certain consciousness and not a self-contained prescription to reach that stage. Adwaitism is a continuation of Dwaitism. By experience one comes to a stage when the universe vanishes from the consciousness, when nothing remains except ' I am God ' ; later I vanishes , and even God conception vanishes . What remains is an indescribable Divine ecstasy and a perpetual blissful state.
Mai-ism says, " Nothing is unreal - Creation and Creator, happiness and misery , heaven and hell, deities and human beings , obedience or dis-obedience to the Divine law. So long as the soul has any relation with bodies and so long as one is affected even to the slightest extent , physically, mentally or spiritually , these differences do exist and are not unreal. Practically every one is a Dwaitist, so long as he has a body, mind , heart and soul.
Why not come to fundamentals ? What is the object you want to achieve by saying , " Everyone is God " ? Why not come straight to the requirement ? " You make no distinction between man and man, that will cause misery to any one and add misery in the world." " Love any other being and serve as your own self . Consider him to be like your own self. Try your best to forget every harmful difference between you and any other man. " All these teachings are sensible enough.
Mai-ism says the simplest thing ," You be good, loving and serving others because Mother Herself is pleased thereby and She will make you happy. For your own happiness, protection and escape from misery, you love and serve others."
First thing is the idea of Motherhood itself. It is the daily experience of everyone that a mother is pleased on serving her children. But the greater strength proceeds from the fact that love and service and universality, are the very first words of the Mai-istic commandment, with the highest importance given there to. That and Universality make the whole difference.
Why jump into a decision , ' World is unreal ' because there are a few men to whom it is unreal ? Why not consider the fact that even in the case of these blessed ones there was a period when they saw the universe as real. The universe or even individual soul is an unreal reality and a real unreality.
Mai-ism repeats," No mistaking of an ideal for a fact. " to the extent the difference remain to an Adwaitist, let him remove the incongruency by saying , " My idea has not reached the point of realization."
Don't be a curiosity seeker in the matter of mysteries beyond your limitations. Be ready to be taught, with the firmness of humility and duty , to walk in the Divine Path . Mother, Herself will reveal to you as you advance , as much of the secret as is necessary for your further progress. Whom She selects that person alone can know and understand the secret, and that too only a fragment.
The mystery has to be learnt in the language of silence. You can rise above the imperfection of being troubled with doubtfulness and attain a stage , where the mind does not leave its bliss to invite uneasiness under doubts. That is the real stage. That is the real substance and the permanent work to be done. The meaning is , your mind reaches a stage when it neither raises any such worthless questions , nor does it care to know even If that worthless knowledge were imparted to you by any outside agency. I am not denying clairvoyance or telepathy or any powers of knowing past, present and future ; but for a Mai-ist, other things may be true but are not indispensable. To be knowing everything is no requisite qualification either for peace or bliss or salvation.
To the worldly man as also to the routine religious man, there is nothing worth thinking about in the divine arrangement in the relationship of any two persons. One moment , any two persons are pulling on well. Another moment they don't pull on. What is there to be thought about ? The subject is however is extremely deep , deeper than all the meanings of the known slokas of various scriptures. It is called YOGANUYOGA in religious language. Actual union or happening in obedience to the pre ordained union or happening. It is an unfathomable Divine arrangement that any two persons live together almost inseparable , so long as God desires them to learn certain lessons from each other. The moment the lessons are learnt, without any reason worth the name , the attraction sublimates and evaporates.
The highest teaching is through the Guru in the language of silence. The essence of the teaching is , ' ANNIHILATE THE MIND ITSELF. " At least , stop it from being perturbed with millions of thoughts . Acquire the perfect state of quietude where mind itself refuses to be disturbed from its absorption and dissolution in itself, Soul, Guru or God.
God and Guru both should be worshipped. Guru without God is nothing. God without Guru is nothing, though Guru is only an infinitesimal part of god.
To turn to the occult forces, it is love and hatred that rule the world and practically all the dealings of man to man. It is therefor that Mai-ism can afford to remain silent in the matter of the usual hundred of things mentioned in the name of Religion once the tendency of loving others is created . Love is an attraction. It may be of any type. The world can surely make itself much happier by putting into practice the Mai-istic commandments of Love and Service.
During the Hubli period, there were other wonderful experiences. One lady came over to Hubli with her husband and daughter of twenty five , not getting a husband. They stayed for about five days. For one night , the daughter was made to lie on a mere carpet, before picture all alone. She was given certain Mantras to repeat. On their going home to Bombay [ Mumbai ], on the very same day, an England returned engineer made an offer to the girl, and the very letter which referred to their safe reaching at Bombay by the first post contained the gladdening news.
In 1942, Founder's Friend's wife lost her husband. The lady loved her husband so dearly that had it not been for the special religious treatment of Founder she would have committed suicide or turn lunatic. She would get dreams and visions of her husband. She [ This was Taramai A. Desai ] prayed to Founder to enable her to be with her husband by painless prompt death. She could not be consoled. Founder then used his higher powers ," Would you be satisfied if once only you see him ? You have take care of your children who are so young. " She insisted ," I will hear you only after you make me see him once. The promise was given : " You will see him during this week following Diwali." On Padva Day, she came to the Founder early in the morning. Founder said," I will begin my New Year with a forehead vermilion mark by you and then you go out."
She returned in the evening with great joy stating that she had seen her husband in Khar and he had blessed her with a smile from a distance and disappeared. She wanted a repetition but that was with great persuasion refused. " Do you wish to make him also unhappy " ?
When the Founder was transferred to Hubli in December 1942, she went to Bhagwan Raman Maharishi and Sri Arbind Ghosh and Swami Ramdas and finally came over to Mai in Hubli. There she was initiated into Mother worship and the whole Mother philosophy. She was given an independent room where she concentrated on her husband. She returned home after 3 or 4 days. For nearly three years it was continued process of an extremely scanty supply of oil to a lamp and constant care that the light does not extinguish. She was actually seeing and conversing with her husband . Founder was pressing that she had sufficient consolation with a sufficient period and that they must now separate. One night she did not come out of her room even up to half-past two. The Founder and her husband's friend were outside. The room was locked from the inside. Founder broke it open. The lady was lying unconscious. She was brought to the main hall. At 4 a.m. , when she restored full consciousness , she told Founder with profuse weeping , her husband given her the last final good-bye. She tried and tried , but he would not come again.
The stage was something like tying bandages after a successful operation. The Founder made her believe , now she was acting inimically to his soul, by not permitting him to proceed further in his journey, as a free soul. Gradually the heart and mind began to restore a stage of maturity. She had reached a stage of evolution which made her a saintly soul . In worldly matters she restored a normality about all her duties.
The Founder accompanied her with two children of hers to Bhagwan Raman Maharishi , her own Guru. There her son fell seriously ill. Without letting the Founder know of it, lest he be offended, she went Maharishi and spoke about her son's illness. The son was getting worse and worse . At 11 p.m. of the night previous to the day when they had a programme to start , she burst into violent tears and began to scold and taunt the Founder ," Being Mother, don't you feel ashamed ? Your heart is cruel." Founder asked ," What is the matter ? " She said, " What is the matter ! Have you no eyes ? This boy is dying here.". Founder said, " Why worry about it ? Tell me when you want him to get up and you sit me for Mother 's worship and Mantras. ". Founder took the medicine dose , sanctified it and both sat together to pray to Mother. Founder is extremely child - like ," Now tell me when do you want him to be alright. " She said, " What a joy it would be if we can keep up our programme of starting tomorrow morning ? It will be enough if the boy becomes removable by 5 a.m. " The dose was administered at 11.30; both sat out before Mother and repeated Mantras and at 11.50 , the boy shouted out, " Mother, I am free, I am normal ". There was nothing but joy. All returned to Hubli.
The lady had a further experience . Her daughter suffered from leg distortion. Many doctors were consulted. The girl who was devoted to Bhagwan , went there and stayed for months. No cure. One day she caught the Founder," Have you no pity over my daughter ? Her whole life will be spoiled ". Founder said , " I am seeing so many unhappy around me . Do you think I should go out of my way and say ," Come on , I will cure you ", to one and all ? Should they not be even approaching Mother with a humble request ? The curing process requires the faith of the patient to the effect that the Founder's word will not go in vain with Mother. Second thing is , the Founder's whole hearted desire that the patient be cured and the third thing , the patient and the Founder to be most intensely praying . And all this , he is doing to spread the religion of his most beloved Mother. She must first have a belief. If she has that , I will cure her with mere earth. " The girl agreed to repeat the Mantra. The Foundations of Mai-Niwas was being excavated. The lady was asked to bring that earth and give a massage , repeating only " Jay Mai Jay Markand Mai ".The girl was cured in a fortnight.
What is the meaning of the preaching, " Rise above pain and pleasure, victory or defeat, benefits or loses " and so many allied teachings ? Some one asks, " Go on thinking ' Who I am '. " I have thought for full ten years. I am So and So, husband of So and So, father of So and So,. But I am where I was. Mai-ism says these teaching are not remedies in themselves. They are the most enchanting and deifying expressions and descriptions of high souls who have reached that stage. They are descriptions and not prescriptions.
" The remedy is something else " clarifies Mai-ism. It is Grace , Grace , Grace , Grace, Grace, Grace of God and Guru. Get the Grace and the rest will automatically follow. When a mother starts on a pilgrimage , does the child gets worried as to the food they will get and the rivers and forest they shall have to cross ? You are not required to be knowing everything, for a Mai-ist, even anything . You are carried through every situation, provided you becomes Mother's child and that is Mai-ism. What can help you is the Grace and the easiest way of getting Grace is love, service, devotion and unconditional cheerful self surrender as Mai-ism teaches," Abhyasa " the practice , the repetition for times without number till the mastery is achieved is the most practical remedy. And Manan and Nidhidhyasan is the mental remedy.
One does not know when and where the mischievous she-monkey-mind will drag one and what she will make of him. This is a subject of deep study which helps the spiritual development by creating and overpowering conviction about the inconsistency and worthlessness of the world and by engendering a feeling of ' having absolutely nothing to do with the world ' . This feeling is what is usually described as Vairagyam ( disgust and dispassion ). It must be subtly appreciated that this feeling of Vairagyam , which on the face of it means something reverse of love , is in Mai-istic understanding, only the reverse side of Love - Love towards the eternal varieties . It is your love for permanence, constancy and changelessness, that make you tired of temporariness and everchangingness.
So many people who go to other saints for ' Shanti ' ( peace of mind )have finally gone to Mother for the relief of miseries and hardships . Mai-ism says , most natural thing for a man is that he wants to be supplied. Mai is the giver of Salvation and also Enjoyment of moral and legitimate desires.
Nothing matters provided you have decided to be better through God's and Guru's Grace . Highest Gurus are hard to find, but your severe and intense prayer to your Mother is sure to get you your Guru , atleast for the particular stage you are in.
The difference between a Saint and a Guru must constantly be before the mind of a spiritual aspirant. A Guru is one who guides you in every detail of your living in the religious realm, one in whom you can confide , one to whom you surrender yourself withe confession of all the facts and defects of your life and living .
Hold on to your God and hold on to your Guru, with the tightest grip, come what may, start your spiritual improvement from the very first alphabet. Even go back if you find a single element of yours unripe. In the end, the tortoise will beat the hare and will win the race.