Monday, September 3, 2018

Mai Nivas Chapter 5 Abridged Maiism


ABRIDGED MAI-ISM

CHAPTER V

MAI NIWAS


The Founder retired from Hubli in August 1945. The wonderful speed with which things were progressing was giving him greater and greater assurance about Mother's Will. His heart was dancing with joy. He said to himself," if such people as poor Madrasis were ready to spare one- third of their pay, he was sure to have the personal assistance of thousands from Bombay [ Mumbai], Ahmedabad and Gujarat so very easily. " The rich and religious and charity-minded Gujarat had known and tasted Mai-ism for over ten years.
The Founder had helped so many from so many hardships, such as none would like to be mentioned in public, most wonderfully and miraculously.
The Founder gets sickened when he reviews this question after his disillusionment about what the world in its natural constituency is. The less said the better. The Founder saw in one year what he had not dreamt of in over fifty-five years. The whole world changed as soon as he gave an utterance to his intention of expecting some financial help for doing Mother's work, which he had been doing for so many years in the past and which the world had enjoyed at the Founder's expense. People who had wept before him and whose tears he had wiped, began to talk to him as a house-master would speak to a door-beggar.
People began to talk about a trust and a committee. The Founder was agreeable to the proposal. Both proposals were placed before persons interested, but there was not a single man coming forth with any interest whatsoever, either to touch his purse or to move his hands and feet to go to another. Ahmedabad went one step further. Someone with responsible life-status and education abroad argued, " Where is the need for a building for doing Mother's work?  Can it not be done on a Verandah? " Someone would say to him, " If you had an idea of getting money from us to do the work, why did you not begin from very commencement to sell Mother's Grace? " Someone would ask, " Since what date Mother has taken to begging? Is Mother for giving or receiving? " Some would say," Your powers you have lost. They are all consumed; if not, why does not Mother Herself give you a lottery? " Someone will say,"  Come on, cheer up. I am helping you. I will give ten per cent of my gains for Mother's work, on my getting money through your lips ". The masterstroke was this, " If you have no money to continue your fads, why don't you be wise and sit silently in an unknown corner? " Some would say," Your egoism has not died. Who are you to say improve the world? " Some had heartlessness of questioning," What will happen when you die that is the most important question. " Someone illumined him by suggesting to him to give an undertaking to the effect that none of his family members would ever step into the place.
The climax was there when one of the Founder's relatives, on a Friday while going out for work, in his motor said in a threatening manner with the rights of an elderly relative to another," There is nothing more to think about or to do regarding him. He has already turned mad. Confine him in a  room and give him two meals a day and keep all necessary arrangements for his bodily requirement. " This was said in the presence of the Founder and indirectly to him and both started out towards the city for their work. The Founder wept with an outburst of tears shouting to Mother, " My own nearest relatives do not understand me and have not even an iota of love or respect for my work of Thine ".
The motor which carried the relatives had a severe accident, although they were saved. The motor had to be sent for immediate repairs.  In the evening, while returning in the repaired motor, they had a second accident. The motor was sent back for repairs and they had to return to some friend's car. On arriving home the younger relative informed the family of the accident details and with tears in his eyes, embraced the Founder and asked his apology, for the cruel words the eldest relative had addressed to the Founder. The elder relative indirectly joined the younger in his apology maintaining his status, but with every affectionate love.
The Founder would sit for nights, in the terrace of the place at Malad and would be gazing at the moon and praying to Mother. One night, he burst into such a loud laughter, that some of the family members come running to enquire why he was laughing. The Founder said, " This world, Mother has made funniest enough to nullify the highest serenity . I was temporarily unhappy because I left the Mother's lap and too much trusted in the world and expected its sympathetic  co-operation for my Mai's work. I have seen now the world in its true colors. But now I laugh outright ".
" Yes, Mother has promised me . My desire of constructing ' Mai Niwas ' shall not remain unfulfilled. I am given a tip. I will do nothing from now by way of troubling Mother for Mother's Grace to remove the miseries of persons that approach me , without their promise to do something for Mother in return ; that something may be what they themselves decide. But nothing free from now except for the really poor. Mother has promised me . She will try best to give me prompt happy results  in response to my prayers for the relief of  people of individual cases."
The fact that he did not get money from the public was now taken by him  to mean no disqualification. In the matter of charities, he had a vivid picture . Most charities were out of fear of God, or  for fame , or for some  whitewashing some black spot or for catching an opportunity to widen business or for removing the burden of conscience-sting.
The world has to be tackled most diplomatically. To spread one's religion , you should study other religions. Both these views look strange at first, as many saints have neither studied various philosophies nor been under the smallest shadow of wickedness.
When any saint is described as illiterate, that means, one: that he did not go through the regular schooling course; second: that those saints knew little about two penny matters .
The fact is this : if you believe in past lives, the saint has acquired those acquisitions through experiences in past lives. If you don't, he is actually born with certain perfections, or say supremely high faculties. Either way, the thing which people think as absent, being invisible, is invisibly there.
Saints have known the Divine Law and the eternal truths. They have accepted them once for all. Every detail of their living is guided by that wisdom of those truths. So to say, every action of theirs originates from the conviction of those eternal truths. Saints have evolved all their wisdom into their instinctive or super-conscious faculties.
The Founder for years together did not know what  ' L.B.W. '  in cricket means. Once the Founder was invited , to a club, to be a partner in the bridge. He was so much pressed that he had to say it out, he did not know the A.B.C. of the game . Some mildly smiled, some loudly laughed. One of them, a distinguished officer, saved his humiliation by saying, " He is not a bridge player, but a bridge builder for all of us to go to our God."
One night he was in communion with Mother , when Mother cooled him down," Is it not what every religious man has stated  that the world is full of wickedness ?" One educated man in Ahmedabad told the Founder in a soothing manner," Did you know it for the first time today, that the world is wicked ? "  Said the Founder," No, but the extent had remained unknown. And that I have realized only now at the fag end of my life ".
The Founder came to the conclusion that Mother wanted him to work single-handed and single pursed. The only change was that when the world had turned the deaf ear to his request, Founder became more practical and, now in a way, opened his religious - relief - hospital. The Founder with his powers went on relieving different varieties of miseries working hard day and night for the success of persons that came to him, with a clear understanding about their having something to do ( whatever they liked ) to help him to be in financial position to do Mother's Work.
Founder experienced Mother's Grace from stage to stage while Mai Niwas construction was undertaken and Founder entered Mai Niwas at the midnight hour of all alone , himself and his Mother.

The midnight hour of the Friday night of 4 March 1949 was a memorable moment. The Founder had not informed a single soul about his desire to enter Mai Niwas on that particular night. He had a strong desire to enter it alone,ecause he did not know how he would pass that night. He was sure something would take place. At about 11 at night, some Mai-ist [ This was Bro. Himmat Bhai Mehta ] came to see him came off on the Grant Road Station. He insisted on accompanying him; said he would leave him in Mai Niwas and return. The Founder declined his company courteously, but the other purchased two tickets and got on the train. On reaching Santa Cruz Station, the Founder had to make it clear," You may go back. I want to enter Mai Niwas alone ." The man could not understand the mystic force behind the request and purely out of goodness beckoned a taxi-walla, saying he would leave the Founder and return in the same taxi. Before however, the taxi came up, he had such an intense stomach-ache that he fell down. The taxi-walla seeing the miserable plight, turned and went away. The Founder most entreatingly said," You speak out you are not going to accompany me; Mother will remove your pain immediately." The man said," Yes if Mother and you are insistent on that point, I am surely returning." Just at that moment, the pain disappeared; without any further words, he ran to the station. The Founder was trembling within himself. This incident made him sure, something unusual was in store for him. It was two minutes to twelve when he reached the Mai Niwas door. He opened it. It was ground floor building with vast open lands on all sides, with the nearest building far away. It was a dark night. No street- lamp nearby. There was none to save if he was attacked. He reached for a candle packet and match-box packet at the spot where he had placed them when he last visited. They were not there. This made him his heartthrob with fear. "What? Has Mother intended he belaboured that night? " He stood on the Otta for nearly twenty minutes and then laughed outright at the idea how Mother extracts hymns and prayers from devotees. He made bold to get in the black dark near the Mother's picture, allowing the outside faintest light to relieve his fear.
The first experience of his life. The Mother picture was Kali like. He began to sweat. For the first time, he began to get a different picture of his beliefs, " Was he all along under delusion? Was the Mother Ideal only a making of his own brains? In reality was Mother Kali? Which was true, Mother appeared as Kali or Kali had allowed Herself to be worshipped and preached as Mother? " He prostrated. He mustered up enough courage. He decided to pray as Mother and then reconcile both conceptions. sang he to himself :
Karuna Sen Abataka Badha, Karunasen Mili Mai
Karunasen Dukh Marana Ho, Karoona Chooti Na  Jai,
Jo kucha Kiya So Tune Kiya, Men Kachu Janata Nai
Teri Tuni  Samla le, men Japa  Rahahun Mai.
" I have grown old, fairing with Thy Mercy alone. With Thy Mercy alone, I have gained Thee Mother. It is out of pity for the suffering world that I have preached Thee even inviting misery and death. Now I only pray that my pity may not get relaxed and Your Mercy on me may not be at all be diminished. Whatever has been done is done by Thee. I know not a bit of it. The matters you take charge. I am only for sitting in a corner at Thy Lotus Feet all the while repeating Jay Mai ".
As he went on repeating these couplets , his fear was getting vanished ; his conviction was coming up : " Mother's one aspect was Kali " .   More strange than both was the phosphorescent light Mother's image  was getting. The image was gaining in light by his alternative repetitions of " Jay Mai Jay Markand Mai " and couplets , spreading brightness of 5, 10, 15, 20, and higher watts electric bulbs. He had tears of joy and relief. Said he," If you like , you be Kali to the wicked world . To me, you remain Mother ".
Said he laughingly," You won't remain this phosphorescent light all the night. So I take you out. We shall be together on Otta." He spread the carpet on the Otta and went to lift the image. As he thrust his hands behind the image, his hands felt some packets; he pulled them out and the matchbox packet. The Founder's suspicious nature did not leave him; he fell in the thought world of recollection to decide if it was not he who had by mistake put the packets behind the image. " Might it be that somone who accompanied him the previous night , wisely thought, some one would take them away from the window , so better place them behind the image  ? "
As soon as that idea came, the last idea's coming synchronized with the Mother's light disappearing. He was sorry. He condemned himself for his suspicious nature. His brains began to recollect two previous experiences. Once there was light at one of the Bombay suburbs in a kitchen when he prayed ( referred to latter ). The other when in Vile Parle a blaze appeared from the altar. There were some more, as when he runningly passed through dark nights after mid-night, but there were lights which did not last longer than two to three minutes. This was in Ahmedabad when one night he grew very desperate and left his house with, " This is Thy world and its response to Thy work. Thou and Thy world, do whatever Thy likest. I have nothing to do with Thy world today." As he went out in the streets, one after another, every fourth or fifth bungalow, right from Pritamnagar to Bhadra Kali, showed switching on of lights. His vexation turned to an outright laughter saying, " Thy highest pleasure it seems, is vexing me. Instead of switching on electric lights why not switch on the true illumination lights of every one that can help Thy cause? " He got consoled and returned home. He also remembered and laughed at his folly, when he got wrathful in Ahmedabad hospital on Mother ceasing to attend on him, because he had a suspicion."
He accepted this time Mother's decision. If after so much experience , I am nothing better than a street man, Mother is more than justified in withdrawing Her presence , or Her light's presence." He yielded biting his lips. Just as a child that has committed something wrong keeps complete silence and engages itself in some harmless occupation , wishing Mother also may forget or at least forgive , the Founder unmurmuringly  lighted the candle and placed the candle on the nearest window and began to repeat  " Jay Mai Jay Markand Mai ".
The terribleness was not yet over. A wind blew out the candle ; he saw a black figure looking through the window. Was it an apparition, a ghost or some thief ? The figure was moving. The Founder with tremulous voice shouted ,' Kon ' ; ' Who ' ? The reply was ' Kholo ' , ' Open ' The founder lighted another candle and opened the door.
The way which the stranger got in, gave the Founder reason to be sure , there was nothing like danger. The man got in, stood in front of him, salaamed him in a quick  alert manner. When he salaamed , not only all the fear disappeared , but the Founder had a  joy, he had perhaps a companion for the  whole night.
The following conversation followed : " Who are you, Sir ? " Are you the owner ? "  " No  , The Owner is this Mother ( pointing to the image ). I am only Her worshipper and preacher. What is your name? What have you been doing? "  " I am Gurkha. My name is Devasing. This open plot that adjoins your land is being built over. The Sheith has engaged me this evening, from next Monday. At about ten o'clock I decided, " I can go to the place I can call mine  with a right as a Gurkha  of the place ." So I did not wait and I came over.  Sir, were you with some man at Santa Cruz Station? "  " Yes, Did you see me? "  " Yes Sir, The man returned by the next train; he had some giddiness. So you called and dismissed a taxi. I came by the same train ".
The Founder was full of wonderfulness and gratitude. Mother has arranged for his guard , just on duty and immediately after him. " Did you spend your time somewhere  ?  " " No , Sir, I was only following you. I was just lying in a corner of my own land. I saw first It was all dark. Then came a strong light. I thought  there was electric light  but some time after there was only candle light  So I came to inquire ". " Yes. Were are you sleeping ? You can sleep here ". The man preferred to sleep on Otta.
The Gurkha turned out to be religious. He was paid a small pay by the Founder. He served the Founder treating him as master and Guru, practically till May 1950 when the adjoining plot to the east was constructed and occupied.
A palace and a rose garden  kept ready by Mother, for you. This book is for swans. Mother likes to be surrounded with swans whose hearts will overflow  with love, cheerfulness and gratitude , on Her showing such playful proofs  of acceptance by Her.
The next day, the Founder informed all concerned about  his having gone to stay at Mai - Niwas, stating especially to his outside Mai-ists that a great facility was now made for them in as much as , so long as he was not out of Bombay [ Mumbai ] he would be found all the twenty-four hours  in Mai-Niwas and that none would have to go back at any hour for the reason that he was not at the certain place . He never stirred out from 4 March 1949 to 12 September  1949 when the taxi took him to the V.T. station for going to Madras [ Chennai ]. At Madras too , where he went fulfilling Mother's Command , he was for over a month in one house only, without having a single look at anything of Madras, except some four places where Mai Worship was conducted on a grand scale. The Founder began to say to others ," If you want real peace of mind, true understanding and overflows of devotion, confine your body in a particular place , your tongue in the mouth and  your eye-pupils within their eye - lids, as far as you can. Then alone you can have  introspection, self-control and true understanding  of Divine wisdom and super-natural powers  to afford relief to others, as curing illness etc."
The first lesson which Mai Swarupa [ the Founder himself ]  gives is  : First create the amplest leisure of time  by withdrawing yourself from  so many useless physical and mental activities. Humility, gratefulness, forgiving, the pleasure of giving  , truthfulness, mercifulness etc.  these are the very first foundations of true religiosity. Next, preserve your sexual energy. Third thing, you establish a saintly contact.  Contact with God and Guru. If nothing can be done, see that you are for the maximum hours in a  day, in presence of one superior to you in any realm, religious, social or even professional.
The Founder was for making the walls of Mai-Niwas speak for what principals it stood. In a poor man's way , he cut out important pieces  from all his writings and graced the wall pasting these printed extracts on cardboards  and nailing them on the walls . He further purchased a cupboard in which he placed all the copies he had and with bold letters  put up a slip on the cup-board , " FREE FOR ALL : DEMAND ANY COPY ".
Just near the main entrance , he affixed typed copies of the following :- Rules and regulations regarding Place , Persons and Programmes :- 1] Don't pollute the purity of this place of Mother-worship and Mother's residence , by worldly talk, idle gossiping or business.  2] Your coming here must be for some specific purpose of dealing with Mother as , for Prayer, worship, Mantra, solving difficulties, true religious understanding etc.  3] Observe as much as silence as possible. Your talks about even the casual things  with your friends should be in a tone of whisper and only when inevitable.  4] Don't seek forming acquaintances here  or ask questions of self-interest or curiosity. 5] The only talk permissible here is that of God, Mother and Religion. Politics is strictly forbidden here.  6]  Leave the place as soon as your specific work or programme is finished Don't waste precious time of yours and of others. 7] None is permitted to sleep here except servants and outside visitors  coming for Mother's worship from Mofusil places  and persons that are specially permitted  for specific reasons. 8] No outsider who is not a known Mai-ist is permitted to halt here  and the latter for three nights only and with his own arrangements for everything. 9] Everyone standing, sitting or stopping under this roof has to pass his time with the best behavior and practically in a devotional mood with strict observance of this Mai-istic  tenets : - a) Spirit of practical sisterhood and brotherhood b) No distinction of cast, creed, colour, community, parentage , sex, literacy, position, status, means etc.  c) Love in the form of  reverence, helping co-operation, kindness etc. d) Activity of selfless service. e) Devotional approach and attitude. f) Unconditional cheerful self-surrender to Mother's Divine Will.
Re : Attainment of Mother's Grace : - [1] Everyone needs Mother's Grace at every step, in this tempestuous time. [2] God approached as Mother, is more suited for Grace as 'Mother ' is Mercy , while Father is Justice. [3] Speaking about worldly benefits alone  ( not to speak of spiritual benefits ), Mother has wonderfully fulfilled desires of Her devotees. Mother is at their beck and call  as She wants to teach Her sons and daughters the simplest, straight and speedy Royal Road to health, wealth, peace , prosperity and happiness, through the observance of the fundamental  principles preached under Mai-ism. [4] The poor have become prosperous, patients of incurable disease have become healthy, lunatics have become wise , the homeless have built bungalows, the unemployed have become officers , unmarried have got suitable matches, marital disunions have been reconciled, connubial relations have been relishing, hearts breaks have been healed up,  worries of impending calamities have been tided over, barren women have delivered sons, downfalls from great heights have been hurtless, business have flourished, litigations have succeeded, relief of solid help and entire removal of miseries have happened and many other miracles have happened on staunch devotion to Mother. [5] Persons desirous of attaining Mother's Grace  should approach Founder for  along chat by previous appointment. [6] Detailed study of ' Mother's Message ' and serious reading of ' Mother's Thousand Names '  will enable the aspirants to decide   if the path and philosophy of Mai-ism will suit them. Truly religious persons will find Mai-ism  to be most suited. People with unprejudiced open universal and straight mentality  with modernized way of living, judging and believing  will immediately accept Mai-ism as it does not in any way interfere with one's own  ancestral religion and worship. [7] Once the aspirant feels to be in natural waters under Mai-ism, he has simply to climb up by leaps and bounds.  [8] He has to make up his mind to set aside certain hours for daily spiritual work of devotion. [9] The Sadhak will be himself wondering  at the most favorable happenings  and at his spiritual progress. He will feel indescribable joy and beatitude-ful breeze of Mother's Grace. He will see he has some super-natural powers , is helped by unseen in every detail. He will be sure he is not the same person as before , that he has sublimated his soul. In a word, he will have a conviction that mother has showered Her Grace  on him. [10] What is true for one man is true for another, and equally or much more true  for a woman, under Mai-ism,  as a woman has a softer heart , more suited for devotion and Mother's pity-invocation.
Regarding Prayers and Meditations Etc. : - {1} Persons desirous of offering a prayer or practising meditation should be pre-arranged details on consultation with the Founder. {2} Prayers intensely offered have been mercifully answered. {3} Prayers are to be for:- a) Legitimate gains only. b)Removing miseries only. c) Removal of sins. d) General smooth running of worldly life of oneself and family. e) Seeing and relishing and living the higher life, above money making and sense living. f) Enlisting oneself in Mother's service. g) The desire of evolution and emancipation, success in striving and struggling to go higher for introspective powers, knowledge, vision, devotion, meditation, renunciation, progress, peace, relief and happiness. h) Intensifying the spirit of service to all children of Mother and to Mother. I) Being prepared for unconditional self-surrender to the Divine Will of Mother. {4} Black-magic about harming or exploiting others results in Mother's Wrathfulness. {5} Prayers offered here for enslaving others or subjugating them to one's own will, have been treated most mercilessly by Mother. {6} No purely personal aggressive, illegitimate gains here. No exemption from sexual sin here.{7} Please don't forget that Mother is the Final-most-Mother; God as Universal Mother; Mother to every one of any religion or to any one who approaches Her as a child with Love and Service to all her children, Devotion and Surrender to Her Will.  {8} Noblest prayers are - a) Let all be happy. b) Let none suffer from pain and misery c) make use of me, my humble service for Thee and Thy children d) Depute Thy devotees to successfully serve as saviours of this world of ignorance and sin. {9} Prayer for oneself is not most efficacious. The best prayer is for others or for Universal Welfare, as then, others will pray for you and in case of that failing, Mother will not wait for your prayers and will run down to you, for your relief and to help you, even before you pray.
Meditation : - This can be subjective, objective or through geometrical figures. Consult the Founder.
The following two descriptions , one by an interviewer when the Founder was in silent serious hours  with his associates , and the other when he was in an easy-going mood , may be read with interest. The silent meeting interviewer saw him at his temporary residence  on Tagore Road, Santa Cruz  , at about 8 p.m. on a Tuesday in 1940. He describes his interview as under :-
" The Master's programme on Friday nights  is quite different from that of  silent meetings on Tuesdays , when only the nearest people gathered round him. The Master was simultaneously dealing with about twelve persons  when I entered the place , sisters and brothers.  Here was a silent sitting , without a single person knowing or trying to know  what was passing in other's minds , or between the Master and each of them, in the powerful authoritative language of silence.  In the midst of a big hall, there was a swing on which Master was lying  with pillows under his head and sides , with a hanging leg  with which at long intervals , he was giving a slight motion to the swing. He ware a loosely tied dhoti and a malmal shirt  which was never buttoned up. Each one that came in , entered with a pin drop silence prostrated and on receiving blessings  took suitable seat wherefrom the face of Master could be seen.
"The blessings differed with every person. Some prostrators, he would at once raise up with a jerk, some gradually and slowly, some he will allow to continue prostrating for over five minutes. Regarding some  , he would smoothly moves his hand  over the prostrating back, some he would raise up with the catching and lifting up the chin, some by patting strokes, some by contacting their heads with pointed and forcefully placed pressing fingers . Some he would raise up by a snip of fingers , some by slowly moving the hand over the forehead. No two persons were blessed in the same manner , which made it clear to anyone that the blessing method indicated  person stood with reference to God Guru and one's self.
The raising by sudden jerk conveyed the idea to the prostrator " You have come too early." Gradually and slowly raised prostrators were conveyed  that Mother's Grace on them was slow  but steady and that they should continue with faith and patience.  Continued prostration without the touch meant, the prostrator must severely repent   for his wrong acts  or behavior before he can be entitled to Mother's Grace as before. The hand contact by inverted finger nail strokes after a long bending , meant he was forgiven  , but was warned not to repeat the wrong. Smooth moving of the hand  on the back meant , full sympathy in the bereavement for which the prostrator  was not responsible. The lifting by the chin meant Mother loved the prostrator like  a child , although there was enough of folly. Contact on the head means sympathy in efforts to understand analyse  and set right the mental  disquietude. The snip of the fingers meant cautioning against the very likely slip. Touching the forehead meant  substitution of sublime thoughts  for routine and rotten thoughts.
" Between the arrival and departure , and the prostrations and blessings , there was nothing but a silent pause and exchange of eyes and the respectful obedient demeanor. The spirit imbibing  process began for each disciple with an earnest profound  staring at the figure of the Master  and keeping the eyes closed  with meditation , except at long intervals , when the eyes opened for  a few seconds  again to close.
" New visitors coming for the first time were looked upon by the Master by a visible turnoff his deep-reading eyes, from the toe to the top. If the new visitor were proud of their wealth, knowledge or devotion, the Master would pamper to their vanity and dispose them off quickly. To the wealth proud he would say,' It is nice to talk about religion and to boast about Jnana and Bhakti, but the wealth possessor is the real Vishnu on earth. ' To the Jnana proud , the Master would say ,' Mere devotion is blind. Real thing is Jnana which you have acquired.' To the devotion proud he would say ," You have your Istha-devata in your fist. What a small creature am I, for you to have come down all the way ? "
" After one hour meeting silently dispersed. "
In the other case, the visitor went to see him at Mai - Niwas in one of the evenings of 1949. He soon recognized the building, but to his surprise, it had neither the augustness  nor the silence of an Ashram. What does one find ?  Out and out rowdism of more then a dozen boys and girls below fourteen , simply a noise, an indiscipline crowd of them.
The stranger had the courtesy of not going in straight. He could infer from all that shouting, running, quarreling , mutual chasing etc. was going on with the presence of some elderly person of that place  who was  simply seated on his cot as if he were deaf and dumb and lame. In the open spaces around the building , cows  and bulls and dogs and goats and crows were in their full mischievous playfulness.
The visitor had a feeling of disgust. He said to himself , " What sort of Ashram is this  and what sort of saint he is ? " The disgust abated after climax and turned to a scoffing curiosity of seeming things.  Some boys were running up on the terraces. Some boys were simply switching on and off all the lights. The visitor was sick of the scene. His modern living mental set up of , " Who are you to touch  my things ? With whose permission did you enter this place ? Don't disturb me . Get out . ", was overpowering him.
Just then, some cows and bulls climbed up the steps , made their way to the kitchen door . All were disturbed, the gangs were broken and every one of them, boys and girls ran away.
The visitor said to himself," All are gone. I lose nothing in seeing the man." Suddenly he heard a musical voice singing. It looked the man was coming out. Out he came. He welcomed the visitor, " Come in, please ".  The visitor stepped in. But where does the former inquire his name, place or purpose? He turns to the image and sings. [ The Founder was Honorary Examiner in Music for Bombay Government. ]
" Bazuza Khairata Kucha Apna Nahi Hai ." ( Except charity absolutely nothing is ours. )
The visitor has evaporated from his eyes and mind. The man sings the same line over and over, with different modulations; his feet are with great difficulty prevented from dancing, by his own body heaviness.
Tears flow. He wipes them with the end of his dhoti. Feet loose all shyness.  They joins the hands to make the music more beautiful. There is a choking in the heart. He weeps. He sits down.   Gets up, applies his head to the feet of the image , lifts up the image , puts it back. The zazba ( spiritual effervescence ) is slowly coming down with the repetition of the line.
It took about 15 to 20 minutes. He ran into he bathroom, not minding the visitor , washed his face and came to welcome the visitor. " Come in , Sir, Come in. I am sorry  I had to keep you waiting. But I was helpless. " He effort fully composed himself , to be on the normal plane.
The visitor was lost in the ocean of spiritual emotions. He did not think of any formality. He could not raise his tongue to create a jarring noise to disturb himself and to pull his mind to the mental plane from the ocean of undreamt  sweetness and wonder ; the wonder was gradually transforming itself to reverential worshippingness.
Said the Founder , " One Friday night, the last devotee getting up to go, found a thief concealing himself, caught him and brought him to me asking me  if he should hand him over the police. I said No, and told the thief, ' to take away whatever you like from here. ' The thief was put to shame  and was let loose. Except what Mother permits and enables me to enjoy, nothings belongs to me ; not even my own body, mind , heart and soul is mine. "
Pointing his finger to the Mother and unable to utter even a single syllable , the Founder could not hold himself erect and standing. He dropped himself down simply sat  on the ground and began starring at the visitor , speechlessly, as if busy with the work of sublimating and reconstituting the visitor's soul.

Jay Mai . Jay Mai. Jay Mai.


END OF PART ONE OF ABRIDGED MAI-ISM

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